Seems like it was all a dream

To say the last few days have been a whirl wind would be a complete understatement.  I would love to tell you all about my work trip to Costa Rica and how cool it was to see monkeys, iguanas and laid in complete relaxation and I did .....but much more happened on this trip.   Wednesday night I received an email from Brad asking me to call him- I immediately thought something was wrong.  Instead, I found out we were asked to foster-adopt a 14 month old baby and his unborn baby brother due in 10wks.  The mom is/was in an abusive relationship and CPS has stepped in and removed the children.  Our agency doesn't really work with foster-to-adopt situations but since this mom had been connected to the agency in a mom support group our agency was trying to offer the best scenario for her and the children.  Needless to say Brad and I were on board and neither one of us slept that night or the next!   After going back and fourth with our agency we found out Thursday night that the birth mother chose us and Brad was to leave the next day to go meet our soon to be son. So Brad and I immediately got our AMAZING friends on the job to help us get a home ready for a 14th month in 2 days.  Then, as Brad was heading to College station to meet the 14th month old and begin the bonding process the agency called and said the mom has backed out.  The 14th month is going with his paternal grandparents and supposedly her unborn child will go there too even though this baby is from a different dad-weird.

Needless to say, we are emotionally exhausted. Since I had not slept in 2 days the news of this, I guess, physically knocked me out.  I slept all day Friday not seeing the sun and trying to understand and get a hold of all of the emotions.

Now, I am somehow feeling okay.  Since those days were basically sleepless, I felt like I was a little delirious and its hard to recall all of the events.  It really feels like it was all a bad dream.

With all of this said-I know the only way Brad and I are holding together is the power of prayer.  Our family and friends have shown us so much support and have been praying and all I can say is the power of prayer is so real and if you sit back you can feel it.

So, I am going to keep praying for those sweet little baby boys that would have been a part of my family today.  I pray for their safety and pray their mom opens her heart again to the idea of adoption.

hugs,
Amanda