Last week and Memorial Day

The last week has been full of major decisions and accomplishments.

First the decisions....Last week we decided to not go to our quarterly adoption support meeting AND decided to put our book on hold.  This means we are currently not actively showing to any birth mothers.  Clearly, this was not an easy decision but Brad and I both feel it is the best move at this time.  In July, I will try one more time to get/stay pregnant on my own and we are thinking about  switching adoption agencies.  Since these are two big things we feel putting adoption stuff on hold for the next month or two was the best move.

Next, accomplishments!  I ran my first half marathon!! My goal was to run the whole thing but I guess after a week of tough decisions and the anxiety of running my first race, my stomach was acting really weird- I had self diagnosed myself with an either an ulcer, hernia, or stomach cancer, hahhaha. So needless to say I didn't have my best foot forward but I still ran pretty well until about mile 9 when it was uphill in the wind...so I decided to walk 2 miles then finish strong.  I finished in 2:24 which was in the top half of my age group so I guess I will take that PLUS I am pretty confident I can beat that time so it gives me a goal to stride for:)

I'm blessed by the support! It was so great to do this with one of my good friends Chelsea!  If it had not been for her running it I totally would have backed out Sunday night b/c I was in "pain".  Thanks Chels!!

Most importantly,  Brad came out to watch/cheer me on and he was so excited and supportive when I finished it made me feel so good and honestly kind of shocked me:)  His big words of wisdom prior to the race was "just keep running" "its no big deal".   I guess he was doing that to keep me from getting even more nervous.  Now, I didn't finish anywhere near his first marathon time (1:31).....can you believe he ran that dang thing almost an hour faster than me!! What a show off, haha.

Regardless of my time or stopping, there was just something unexplainable about having him cheer me on and hug me at the end -I guess it is what makes me feel like I can do anything, i.e try to get pregnant, adopt, run another marathon, do a handstand, etc:)

Mother's Day

So without going to much into this, Mother's Day was obviously hard for me.  I was pregnant last year on Mother's Day and was so excited.  This year I pretty much tried to avoid all parts of day...with the exception of seeing my own mom.  I cannot tell you what how humbled/loved/supported, etc I felt by some of the sweet texts and FB messages some of my friends sent me.  It was tough and I know your prayers and thoughts were what was keeping me from having a breakdown. I mean I am really surprised I made it through the day without a tear falling....everything I looked at was about being a mom- facebook, twitter, Rangers Game and even yoga, ugh, I couldn't escape it but I did my best, ha!

Brad and I had some quality time as well, since I have been traveling then sick then traveling again we really needed to spend some time with each other and finally talk about all the things that happened a few weeks ago. So that was good and more to come on that later!