Calendar

Yesterday's appointment went well- I had my hysteroscopy and everything looked good.  I also got my calendar for the next month leading up to getting me pregnant, which hopefully leads to me staying pregnant. And we went over all the fun shots I will get to take!

Here is just a snap shot of the shots:

Thursday July 25th-  August 4th or 5th - Morning and evening shot of Lupron in leg

Saturday July 27th- August 4th or 5th- Morning shot of Menopur in stomach below belly button

Saturday July 27th- August 4th or 5th- Evening shot of Gonal-F in  stomach below belly button

August 5th- HCG- Trigger shot- I can't remember with this one is.....I think butt area:)

August 8th- hopefully 10wks- Progestrone shot in hip/butt.  Brad will give me this shot

August 8th- hopefully  40 weeks- Lovenox- in stomach

August 8th- hopefully  40 weeks- baby aspirin

 Retrieval is tentatively scheduled for August 7th

Transfer- 8/10 or 8/12

Pregnancy Test- 8/21

I should get my huge box of these medications Tuesday!!

Brad and I are really feeling good about this!! We both are praying very hard that this works and gives me a better shot of not miscarrying again!!

AMH Levels

I got a call this week about my AMH levels.  The nurse called and said my level was .56 which is low but Dr. Lee feels "okay" with continuing IVF....needless to say I was discouraged that my level was so low and that the nurse felt she had to tell me the doctor was okay with me continuing the process.  Didn't I have a meeting a few weeks ago where the doctor said I am good candidate for IVF?  Could this test be telling me I don't have a chance?  The normal range for AMH level is 1.0 and .2 is considered menopausal.  Naturally, I thought GREAT, I am closer to being menopausal than fertile. UGH. I immediately got a sick feeling and had a slight freak out moment.  Why did we have to wait so long to start trying....we could have swung law school and a baby, right??

Finally, I did end up calling the nurse back and she was much more calming this time and said they see this level all the time with patients so not to be worried!

So, I am feeling much better now.  I will update again after my Tuesday appointment.

Oh, also this past week/weekend I was at Disney World...It is so much fun!  I felt like a big kid and it was a nice distraction from all my IVF stuff.

IVF- Update

The first steps of the IVF process have begun.  Monday I started birth control and I guess will stay on it until I am told to stop.  My next appointment is July 16th where I will have another hysteroscopy, which I AM not looking forward to- it is so painful!  But after that procedure we will get our calendar with dates of all the next fun stuff, i.e. injections!

Meanwhile, Happy 4th of July! I am heading to Disney World!

IVF- Here we come!

Yesterday Brad and I met with my fertility specialist to discuss my next (and what I feel final) attempt at getting and staying pregnant.  The doctor agreed with my gut feeling that IVF will give us the best possible chance for a successful pregnancy.  So, at the end of this month I begin IV- I cannot believe how much is involved in this process. I have a packet full of "what comes next" and "to dos" .  Right now the next step is just wait until my next menstrual cycle and start birth control (for timing purposes). Luckily, I have great insurance that will cover most of cost  so financially it was not a hard decision.  In fact, I am feeling pretty good about this!

I just pray it works and that I stay sane.....

Hope

HOPE The confident expectation something is going to happen.


I love this definition and I hope that we are blessed with children.

Last week and Memorial Day

The last week has been full of major decisions and accomplishments.

First the decisions....Last week we decided to not go to our quarterly adoption support meeting AND decided to put our book on hold.  This means we are currently not actively showing to any birth mothers.  Clearly, this was not an easy decision but Brad and I both feel it is the best move at this time.  In July, I will try one more time to get/stay pregnant on my own and we are thinking about  switching adoption agencies.  Since these are two big things we feel putting adoption stuff on hold for the next month or two was the best move.

Next, accomplishments!  I ran my first half marathon!! My goal was to run the whole thing but I guess after a week of tough decisions and the anxiety of running my first race, my stomach was acting really weird- I had self diagnosed myself with an either an ulcer, hernia, or stomach cancer, hahhaha. So needless to say I didn't have my best foot forward but I still ran pretty well until about mile 9 when it was uphill in the wind...so I decided to walk 2 miles then finish strong.  I finished in 2:24 which was in the top half of my age group so I guess I will take that PLUS I am pretty confident I can beat that time so it gives me a goal to stride for:)

I'm blessed by the support! It was so great to do this with one of my good friends Chelsea!  If it had not been for her running it I totally would have backed out Sunday night b/c I was in "pain".  Thanks Chels!!

Most importantly,  Brad came out to watch/cheer me on and he was so excited and supportive when I finished it made me feel so good and honestly kind of shocked me:)  His big words of wisdom prior to the race was "just keep running" "its no big deal".   I guess he was doing that to keep me from getting even more nervous.  Now, I didn't finish anywhere near his first marathon time (1:31).....can you believe he ran that dang thing almost an hour faster than me!! What a show off, haha.

Regardless of my time or stopping, there was just something unexplainable about having him cheer me on and hug me at the end -I guess it is what makes me feel like I can do anything, i.e try to get pregnant, adopt, run another marathon, do a handstand, etc:)

Mother's Day

So without going to much into this, Mother's Day was obviously hard for me.  I was pregnant last year on Mother's Day and was so excited.  This year I pretty much tried to avoid all parts of day...with the exception of seeing my own mom.  I cannot tell you what how humbled/loved/supported, etc I felt by some of the sweet texts and FB messages some of my friends sent me.  It was tough and I know your prayers and thoughts were what was keeping me from having a breakdown. I mean I am really surprised I made it through the day without a tear falling....everything I looked at was about being a mom- facebook, twitter, Rangers Game and even yoga, ugh, I couldn't escape it but I did my best, ha!

Brad and I had some quality time as well, since I have been traveling then sick then traveling again we really needed to spend some time with each other and finally talk about all the things that happened a few weeks ago. So that was good and more to come on that later!